i feel so bad. but i can help but to just cry a little. :'(

i know to myself that i almost done everything just to make things right. just put things in a right way. but maybe my best wasn't good enough.

i know it's hard to expect. maybe that's my mistake. i expect a lot. that's why i end up crying. helpless. no choice but to endure the pain.

sometimes i realize why life is so cruel. to the point that i even hate God. my sin. :(

maybe the so called LIFE for me isn't that planned so right. and maybe.. just maybe. i have to accept the fact that i'll always be the LOOSER.. :'(


I JUST HATE MYSELF. URGH.